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[24 Nov 2005|09:26pm] |
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So I'm kinda bored so I thought I'd say hi. I'm having a little bit of an emo day today which was made slightly better by an hour and a half of yoga. I need my emo sister to come and play with me. I guess I shall have to wait for the weekend for that. If anyone knows the band Tilly and the Wall they have a song 'I always knew' and I'm kinda using that as my empowering song at the moment. I feel it is freakishly about me. It's kinda helping but being friends with Sharmin has helped me become proud for my emo-ness.
I'M EMO AND I'M PROUD.
So all these things that are going around in my head are just adding to me being emo. Maybe I should go drink whiskey with Conor and Tim in Omaha.
I'm very excited about moving into a new house on Saturday with no parents to ask pointless and annoying questions every five minutes. I've been constantly thinking about where I'm going to put things and hoping that everything will fit in my room. I'm going to spend most of Saturday rearranging and making everything perfect.Yay for a house that will soon become a home (and hopfully a party home!)
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[06 Nov 2005|05:57pm] |
"And Mike I'll teach you how to swim
if you turn the bad in me into good again"
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| I'm back...but for how long |
[30 Oct 2005|09:15pm] |
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So I was just totally inspired to write on this thing for the first time in like 2 months or longer. I kinda just wanted to send out a small thank you to all my friends. I have had some of the best weekends of my life since being back. I really don't think I tell you all enough how much I love you. So thank you dear school friends, boyfriends who have become dear frinds and random people who have become or are being some of my favourite people.
So anyway I feel at the moment like I'm kinda in limbo. This is going to sound a lot worse then I intend it to but I feel I am nothing. I can't really describe it because I don't really mean it in a bad way. I know it sounds selfish but I like to feel speical and lately I've just been feeling gross. I don't know what it is but its just really annoying me now. I've been living in my head more and more lately and that kinda scares me because I really like being in that world but its not reality and I fear the lines are going to start to get blurry. Man why is it that when I'm in my room alone I can articulate things so well then when I try to write them done they just don't come out the way I want.
Well this post really took a turn around. When I was inspired to write on it I was all happy and wanted to tell the world how much I love them, but hey what are you going to be, I'm just one big contradiction!
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[06 Sep 2005|12:06pm] |
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I am sitting in the airport waiting for my flight. I have the worst feeling about coming home that has just hit me now. For the last 3 months I have been living in my own little world, but now I have to go home and face everything. Everything that I thought would happen when I got home now has the potentional to fuck up. I am actually really scared right now. I also dont wont to deal with the fact that I have to leave my sister for another 3 months. She means so much to me and she always makes everything seem okay. I want this feeling to go away, now. Its a good thing that I am going home and I cant wait to see everyone so why do I feel like Im about to have a panic attack?
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| I'm coming home |
[03 Sep 2005|07:11pm] |
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Hello
I am returning home on Thursday! I think i get in at about 8 30 am but I may not catch my connecting flight. I will send around a message in that does happen. I think that you should all come visit me at my house that day and hang out with me all day! Anyway I can't wait to see you all and I can't believe I'm home so soon.
Hey does anyone what to come see spoon with me???
okay see you all soon
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| Hello again |
[14 Aug 2005|08:21pm] |
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Why hello Adelaide friends,
This is just a quick message to say hi. I hope all is well at home and everyone is having fun. I can't wait to see you all in just over three weeks!
Anyway I have just returned from a festival in a field near Lewes. Is was a burleseque festival and it was insane. I went with five other people which was great. Everyone was dressed up and they had a casino and live shows, a fair few naked people and many many people on drugs. They were actually proper stalls selling soda bombs so that people could inhale toxic fumes. I have never in my life witnessed anything that crazy.
So whats up in Adelaide? You will all have to tell me home the first crank is as I'm very excited that we have a place to dabce again. Elysia I want to come see your house as soon as I get home as it is very exciting.
Well London is starting to get cold althogh this week is going to be around 25 degrees. I have short hair that also has some pink in it but I think it may become brown before I come home. The Notting Hill canival is coming up which will be massive and I'm going to see the pixies the week before I leave. I'm shopping like crazy and am loving every second of it.
I better gho as I am on Robi's computer. I miss you all like crazy
love
leigh
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[22 Jul 2005|01:50pm] |
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Hello to all my live journal friends.
I thought it would be best if I updated this thing while I was here in london rathen then sending e-mails as my last e-mail to beth didn't work and I don't have dans address.
So anyway I hope things are well in Adelaide. London is very cool but kinda in choas at the moment. The Police shot a man today at a tube station and some of the tubes aren't running (my line the northen line included) so I'm having to take the bus which is fine but there is so much traffic. I took my 2 hours to get home yesterday when it shold have atken about 45 mins.
Besides from that I'm having the best time. I'm obsessed with the camden markets. Dan you would love them so much. Stacey took me to Columbia road on sunday to the flower market which was more fun then it shoulds. All these big tattooed english guys selling their flowers and giving advise. We got a cupcake there then went down to Bricklane via this really cool jewelery store. We went and sat at a bar on bricklane for most of the day and it was just so relaxed and chilled out.
So whats been happening with all of you?
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| so this is the new year... |
[09 Jan 2005|08:47pm] |
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Things seem to be looking up even though at the moment I'm totally confused.
I'm finally excited about a new year full of new experiences. I can see now that if I could re-do last year then there are a few things I would done differently but I'm kinda okay with everything now. I'm like to take my chances this year!
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[26 Dec 2004|04:56pm] |
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With every second of everyday things just keep getting worse. I can't remember another time when I have felt this bad.
I want to crawl in a hole and die
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[19 Dec 2004|11:33am] |
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Have a nice summer
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[03 Dec 2004|05:57pm] |
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So does anyone else find these things freakishly accurate???
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[08 Nov 2004|06:11pm] |
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I love the new Used album so much that if it were possible for me to have its children I totally would!
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I came to the realisation on the weekend that the music I love is my identity. I've been in a terrible state lately thinking that there was nothing to me and that I had no idea who I was. I now see that music doesn't just inspire me, it is me!
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I am feeling very relaxed afater a very calm weekend and a wonderful night at Beck Normans. That girl just has this way of putting things into perspective and making me think that everything will all be fine
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[04 Nov 2004|08:35pm] |
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I'm getting really scared now. I don't know what to say or what to do. I see the ones I love waisting away and when I try to help I get yelled at. The mind is such a powerful thing and when it is set in its ways no one can break them but the one the brain controls. I wish I could help, I wish I knew more about it all so I might be able to help, I wish I had enough patience. I don't know if I should just give up and move on or stay and fight. I fighting a losing battle I know that much! I see the harm it is causing and I'm more scared then I have ever been before.
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[04 Nov 2004|08:13pm] |
if I could I would shrink myself
sink through your skin to your blood cells
remove whatever makes you hurt
but I am too weak to be your cure
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[24 Oct 2004|10:15pm] |
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I thought that I was totally over the period in my life where I hate everything but alas it has returned.
It seems that nothing can cheer me up right now. I don't know why I have been like this lately.
The only thing that makes me happy is kinda just all in my head.
Up until a couple of months ago I use to live in my head constantly. I guess that is why I can't really remember past events, I never actually lived them properly.
I've gone back to that.
The problem is that I like the world I have created in my mind and I don't see any reason why I should leave it.
I don't like myself and I don't really like my life right now. I feel like an outsider and that I'm just drifting with no purpose.
I just wish I could skip ahead five years so that I can hopefully be over this.
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[24 Oct 2004|10:10pm] |
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jesus jesus jesus jesus jesus
oh my god!
:)
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[18 Oct 2004|05:40pm] |
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I feel really strange today! Kinda like I don't matter at all. Everything seems pointless and worthless. I feel alone and I can't see that ever changing. I think I need to go away for a weekend, I think I need to get things clear in my head. I know I need to talk thing out with more then one person but I just don't know how to bring it up. I'm afraid things will become weird, because I think I alreadly know the out come. I guess I don't really make an impression. All I've ever wanted is to be told that I'm special, but that has never come. I guess I'm getting sick of waiting.
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[08 Oct 2004|09:19pm] |
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I am now $110 poorer, but I do have four new CDs to show for that hard earned money!
Yesterday I went CD shopping. Buying Cds always makes me feel happy. Big Star didn't have two of the CDs I wanted so I asked them to order them in as no where in Adelaide seems to have them. I then received a call for them later in the day saying that they have searched every catalogue they have and they think that the bands I wanted don't exist! I was so annoyed because I have been wanting these CDs for so long. I ended up calling my sistr in London and asking her if she could look for them there for me. She said that she knows of a few CD stores that are likely to have them. Adelaide sucks!
I'm sorry to inform you, sometimes love can deform you
Yay Bit By Bats this weekend. I'm just a little excited about seeing the boys again, and about a big night at Bang!
So what are you doing saturday night?
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[08 Oct 2004|09:11pm] |
1. Think of a word you would use to describe me.
2. Go to Google Image Search and search for that word.
3. Select the picture you see as most fitting, and post it as a reply.
4. Post this in your journal.
taken from _buttons
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[06 Oct 2004|06:28pm] |
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It seems I've caught a cold and its two years old, it won't seem to go away.
For the first time in a long time, feeling better today!
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